How It Feels To Be Back

One blog post after being absent for five months isn't really the equivilant of being back in the blog scene.  One blog post in five months hardly amounts to much at all.  All the same that one blog post did do the very thing I needed it to do, the thing I'd been procrastinating about--it got me started.  I have yet to pay visits to all my favorite blogs.  I have yet to read any comments left on the last few posts.  But after five long months I did at least get that first blog post written and posted.

The major emotion I felt after clicking the publish button was relief.  As I mentioned in the last post there had been many times over the past five months when I wanted to return, many times I missed the art of sharing my life and the community I had found here.  There were many times I ached to be writing again and wondered what was happening in the blog world, what fun groups had been started, what opportunities to grow had been hatched by some brilliant soul, what bits and pieces of inspiration I was missing out on.  I thought about many of you a lot.  And I thought about how much blogging had changed my life and about how much I had grown since becoming a blogger.  But even though those things crossed my mind constantly I still couldn't bring myself to type that first post.  So when I finally did, when that first post was out there in the blogsphere, I felt relieved, relieved to have it behind me, relieved to know that with that under my belt I could go in any direction I wanted. 

For someone who has blogged for several years I had no idea that taking an extended break and then trying to come back would be so hard.  Of course when I decided to take some time away I also had no idea it would be 5 months before I'd blog again.  In some ways it doesn't feel like I've been away that long.  Sitting here, typing these words, it feels like I've never stopped, that I am still the same consistent blogger I was before.  But then when I make myself stop and think about it I realize 5 months is almost half a year, that lives can change in dramtic ways in 5 months.  In five months time countless blogs have started and ended.  And I missed it all with my disappearance.

But here I am, trying to find my way back into the blogging world and asking myself one big question--what direction do I want to go?

Comments

[AmyFinch24]

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[an eager soul]

I am Happpy you are sharing here again.

[Lynn]

Welcome back. Take your time and make your blog work for you - it shouldn't feel like a burden.

[Kirsten Michelle]

i'm back from a rather extended break myself and can certainly relate to both the difficulty and relief of that very first post.
it's funny, i never left here...i was always hopeful you might return...
but i wondered if the same would be true in my one little space.
i'm finding my way, trying not to see it as a new beginning or put pressure on myself to do things differently. i'm posting. one after another. and we'll see where it leads.
so happy to have your beautiful presence back here in blogland.
xoxoxo

[tami]

Michelle,

Your previous post brought me back to my blog that I began last year and only made a few entries on. It was so hard to write an entry and then post it. I never even attempted to let anyone read it.
Thanks to you I went back today and posted an entry. I've decided to not have any expectations, just post my thoughts and see where the wind blows me.

I hope you will find the direction you need to go - Have fun with it. I for one am so glad you are back.

tami

[D. Smith]

Welcome back!!!!! One of the reasons that I have missed you - your incredible photographs!

Dale

[D. Smith]

Welcome back!!!!! One of the reasons that I have missed you - your incredible photographs!

Dale

[D. Smith]

Welcome back!!!!! One of the reasons that I have missed you - your incredible photographs!

Dale

[D. Smith]

Welcome back!!!!! One of the reasons that I have missed you - your incredible photographs!

Dale

[Debbie W]

Isn't it kind of nice to have so many different options available to you? Blogging is kind of like life in the way that you get to choose which path you walk down. And if you aren't happy with the direction you are heading in, you can turn around and try another path.

Don't stress about direction too much. It will come back to you and evolve in it's own time. The important thing is that if you enjoy it and you have missed it, then you should definitely make it part of your journey. I am a new reader here so I hope that you will take my words of support and encouragement and just start anywhere. The rest will come in time.

Hugs,
Debbie

[Elizabeth]

oh Michelle!!!

I have been checking back here regularly over the months-- asked Liz where/how you were to make sure you were okay--- I missed you so and was sending you loads of love and wishes--- and am SO SO SO glad you are back although the irony is, I can so understand the need to shut off the computer, back away and get some perspective! do I ever!

and, I don't know who this "cool group" is you are referring to-- but I know you are the one I want to hang out with---

bisous, E

[Star]

I'm sure you'll ease back in and soon it truly will feel like you haven't been gone at all.

Love the photo today; such a quality of serenity.

:)